Just when you are on the verge of stop believing....

Isn't it funny? Just when you are on the verge of stopping to believe in God because so many bad things happen in a row something happens that takes away all your hesitations.
This happened to me not to long ago. I was starting to doubt God, because over the last 15 years many things have happend to my family and me where you start wondering about the phrase "you get what you can handle". Especially since I was beginning to really get the feeling that we were getting way more than we could deal with...on the other hand we always dealt with it, what else can you do, right? Anyway, I do still feel think that we have been given way to much on our plate, but that is not the point of this story...
Where was I? Right, hesitations about God. I was struggling with this the last couple of weeks, because of everything that is going on. But somehow this week I got the sign that we shouldn't doubt. And to be honest that makes me an happy person again. It makes me not worry as much as I had been lately. It leaves me more room again to do other things. To see the world with different eyes again, to be able to deal with things better again.
Which brings us to the next phrase "What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger". It is true isn't it. Some how everything turns out the way it should, somehow we are dealt with the cards that we can handle, it must be Faith. It must be related to always having hope, believing, to be kind and warm to others. I guess we are talking about love.
I think I have to remind myself a little more often that God is in the little things in life, and enjoy those things a little more, but also be more conscious of them, there is no need to doubt.